Sad confession: I live a good stone's throw away from the Lloyd Center. For those of you who don't live in Portland, Lloyd Center is a shopping area that was eventually enclosed by a mall. It's one of those claustrophobic malls that comes with its own set of kids in black t-shirts who are only there to go to Hot Topic, but still manage to never leave.
They just keep turning up, like bad, tasteless, vampire-loving pennies.
Lloyd Center is, in short, a shitty-ass mall. It's a shitty ass mall across the street from a Dollar Tree, and across the street from the Dollar Tree is an Applebees, and sharing a parking lot with Applebees is my apartment.
Oh, and I get the smell of this crap wafting through my window. So much for being a healthy vegetarian.
Anyway, it's a pretty nice apartment, and living so close to shopping is a convenience for someone whose main forms of transportation are "my bike is trying to kill me" and "damn I wore through those shoes fast." I mean, it's also close to a grocery store, the MAX line, a Goodwill, and Rose's deli, which has cakes like nobody's business.
And, of course, there's a movie theater.
My one recommendation for those considering going to the Lloyd Regal Cinema: try somewhere else. It's not just that I'm all indie rock and don't dig the corporate game. It's more that I'm all not very wealthy and don't dig the six dollars for a soda and ten dollars for a ticket that isn't matinee (which is more like $7.25. I swear to god, Regal used to do $5 matinees), in a movie theater that really only shows conglomerate studio features. When I feel inclined to go corporate, I go full corporate, opting for at least stadium seating, which Portlanders can find at the Clackamas Town Center, another mall/movie theater combo that is a little classier than Lloyd.
Anyway, I hit upon a stroke of luck when I saw that my local Movieplex was showing The Kids Are All Right, a film that I had yearned to see, but that as far as I knew was playing only at the Fox Tower downtown. With fervor, I marched down to the theater, paid my $7.25 (it was in the afternoon, of course. Remember: I'm poor), sat down in the theater with the Sour Patch Kids and bottle of water that I had smuggled in (saving myself about $30, give or take), noticed that I was the only person in the room under the age of 40, and relaxed.
The plot of Lisa Cholodenko's The Kids Are All Right is delightfully simplistic: the children of a lesbian couple seek out their sperm donor dad, who gets more involved in their lives than they ever expected. The resulting film is an entirely honest and lovely story, made supreme by the performances that tie it together.
I could probably gush some more about how I absolutely adored this film, about how I think Julianne Moore needs a fucking Oscar, about how Mia Wasikowska has become an incredibly surprising actress. I could go on and on about the naturalism of the script, which was combined with a spacious if documentary-esque cinematic style, which more or less made me feel as though I was watching the film from the comfortable couch of my childhood, where I fit perfectly and was content without realizing how fucking content I was. I could easily expound upon the sparse and useful soundtrack, which started with a Vampire Weekend song that came off more as just the right soundtrack for a film that starts on a sunny day in Los Angeles than some Juno-style indie cred crap, and then softly tutter mildly in reference to the slight over-simplification of the character of Nic (which I blame more on the script than Annette Bening), and wonder aloud as to when Mark Ruffalo is going to play anything other than his charming, mumbling, scruffy self.
But I'm not going to do that, at least, not in any more detail. Why?
Because there was something in the film that struck me in a deep and delightful way, an idea so simple and staggering that I would rather discuss it than anything else that I loved in The Kids Are All Right.
It happens towards the end of the film, as Jules (Moore) stands before her family and begins to apologize for her behavior (spoiler alert: she had an affair with Mark Ruffalo and then her wife found out). As she rambles and Nic tearfully watches, her own self-hatred comes to a head; she throws down her arms and softly and firmly says: "I am so fucked up." If there is any big flashing moral to the story, there you have it.
And it is truly spectacular that a film of any kind has been able to articulate this idea. It's the reason why I love films like Sunset Boulevard, or Titus, why I watch Mad Men constantly. The truth of the matter is there, under the surface of complicated plots and confused characters and telling cinematography: we are all fucked up. We are so fucked up.
And maybe that's what makes the unorthodox marriage at the center of The Kids Are All Right so much better: it proves that gay people can not only be married and raise a family, but they can do so while wrestling with the same demons that have been plaguing heteronormative society for centuries. Really, what portrayal of an American Marriage is complete without mentioning infidelity, or being distracted by one's work, alcoholism, a breakdown of communication, a questioning of love and devotion? These struggles exist for couples of all make and model. I cannot say this enough; or, as Titus Andronicus wrote in "To Old Friends and New:" "Are you just too fucked up to understand me or is it the other way around?/Maybe it's both, and I just don't know which one is worse."
Which brings me to this stupid, hopeless, retarded argument that's been ping-ponging around the American Political Discourse for the last few years. It's a phrase, and the phrase is "Family Values," and it is making a strong show of itself in my home state of Florida.
Sunshine State!
I guess I shouldn't bitch and moan about it too, much, though, since this is the sort of thing that you generally see on Florida's roadways:
Anyway, I'm not here to blog politically.
What gets me is that there's this mythology about "family values," as though a real family is one with a man, a woman, two kids of either gender, a nice house, who goes to church, pays their bills, eats dinner together at 6:30 PM. Whatever. There aren't any actual "values" that are specifically for a "family", unless you are stupid enough to assume that once a family is established, they never have problems. Family Values, apparently, means that gays can't marry (because they get in the way of the institution of marriage, and thus Family), that women should never have an abortion (children=Family!), that muslims shouldn't open a mosque in the most populated city in the country (families love Ground Zero, they love church), and so on. The truth is, these things have nothing to do with the "institution" (if you even want to call it that) of family. Family is what happens when someone has a kid and chooses to raise it, either with other people involved in the raising or on their own. It's people who are linked through the desire to care for each other, through hell and high water. And sometimes, oftentimes, we have to accept that the members of that family will fuck something up. That, even if we have no desire to, we will hurt the people that we love, but we will not abandon them. Because that's what family is.
So, in the age of Governor Palins and Weepy Pundits Becks, it's good to have something so wonderfully created like The Kids Are All Right to drive a message home (or, at least, to inspire people like me to drive a message home): Family Values means valuing your family, no matter how fucked up you are. And to look at the fucked up people in your family and say, "yeah, I love them. Those people make my life what it is, no matter who they are on the outside. It's family. And we are all right."